Mar. 24th, 2020 09:50 am
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dustinprewitthow rapidly things can change in the course of a week....
Last sunday, I went out to redeem a 50% off coupon at half price books. things were still relatively calm. People were out and about, but cautious. Monday, I was planning on seeing Bloodshot in IMAX, but that's when things started getting panicky in KC. So instead, I went out to the grocery store, picked up as much supply as I could carry, and also stopped by work to pick up log in at home instructions. Tuesday, I went to work, which by then have already started spreading people out, and was instructed that that day would be the last in the building and starting tomorrow I was to work from home. So that night was spent digging around trying to find sufficient ethernet cable to connect my computer to a grounded internet connect, which thankfully I was able to do. The week was spend doing my work sitting on the corner of my bed, not entirely comfortable but thankfully functional and not too busy. Wednsday I was told that I could come in as normal on saturday. then on thursday we were told someone may or may not have the virus, so we are to stay at home for the forseeable future. then on friday the mayor announced that effective tuesday (today) that the city would be under an official stay-at-home order, all non essential places closed and people urged to stay at home except for very important things.
Its not martial law, its not hourse arresst, its not social breakdown- just making official what people have been asked to do, expected to do, and should do anyway. Grocery stores are still open, and sufficiently stocked. Delivery is still available. But there still has been feelings of panic and anxiety attacks that come and go. The mornings and evenings are the worst, when the sun sets and everything gets dark and I try to go to bed, and the what-ifs attack and the uncertainties of the next day, and when I wake up and the questions as to wether or not today is going to be better or worse than the one before. But things arent so bad, if not could be worse. Sunday I went out and picked up a laptop for more comfortable home office working (something I was planning on doing anyway eventually for more comfortable home media viewing/gaming, but figured now was as good a time as any for it), and some last minute supplies (got what was on my list, except for thermometers and cleaning wipes which are sold out, slippers since I wasnt able to make it to walmart, and a haircut which isnt that important anyway-besides the stress might make me lose whats left of my hair regardless)- I figure by next weekend if nothing else, the panic should die down enough and things should restock, and people, myself included, should be adjusted enough to the changes.
as for myself, the skin on my face has been peeling more (something its been doing for the past decade anyway, probably acting up on account of stress), my biceps sometimes get a sting to them, and I get hot flashes, sensations of burning up when the panic attacks. But so far no fever, Im breathing well, and not too tired. While I have been getting some fears, such as what will I do if I get sick with this, what will I do if I get sick with something else, what will I do if suppllies run out, society collapses, etc etc, I also remind myself of other things that are close if not similar that Ive endured and came out okay in the end. Like when I lost my job and was on unemployment for a year. Mother phone under the impression that Missouri was going to seal its boarders with Kansas and that she needed to come and rescue me from that. While that prospect didnt do anything to help my anxiety (Im perfectly capable of coming up with worst case scenarios on my own without help), I could at least take away the fact that I had a lifeline if worst comes to worst.
So far, it really hasnt been too different from my normal life routine. I still stay in, still order delivery, mostly. The only thing that's really changed is work from home, no large packages, no dining and no movie theaters. I still get my netflix in the mail (king of texas last week, alphaville this week). I do what I can to take 15-30 minutes to step outside and get some fresh air. The weather alternates between sunny and cloudy, but still cool. People still walk their dogs. I still hear the busses go by, the train whistles blow, the birds sing, people chatter in the apartment hallways, etc. Small, but important reminders that life is still life, and this is not the end times.
Now is time for work. April 1st seems to be the next big target date. If not April 23rd, if not sooner. We shall see how things pan out then. All one can do is take care of one's self, hope for the best, and ride it out. We shall see...
Last sunday, I went out to redeem a 50% off coupon at half price books. things were still relatively calm. People were out and about, but cautious. Monday, I was planning on seeing Bloodshot in IMAX, but that's when things started getting panicky in KC. So instead, I went out to the grocery store, picked up as much supply as I could carry, and also stopped by work to pick up log in at home instructions. Tuesday, I went to work, which by then have already started spreading people out, and was instructed that that day would be the last in the building and starting tomorrow I was to work from home. So that night was spent digging around trying to find sufficient ethernet cable to connect my computer to a grounded internet connect, which thankfully I was able to do. The week was spend doing my work sitting on the corner of my bed, not entirely comfortable but thankfully functional and not too busy. Wednsday I was told that I could come in as normal on saturday. then on thursday we were told someone may or may not have the virus, so we are to stay at home for the forseeable future. then on friday the mayor announced that effective tuesday (today) that the city would be under an official stay-at-home order, all non essential places closed and people urged to stay at home except for very important things.
Its not martial law, its not hourse arresst, its not social breakdown- just making official what people have been asked to do, expected to do, and should do anyway. Grocery stores are still open, and sufficiently stocked. Delivery is still available. But there still has been feelings of panic and anxiety attacks that come and go. The mornings and evenings are the worst, when the sun sets and everything gets dark and I try to go to bed, and the what-ifs attack and the uncertainties of the next day, and when I wake up and the questions as to wether or not today is going to be better or worse than the one before. But things arent so bad, if not could be worse. Sunday I went out and picked up a laptop for more comfortable home office working (something I was planning on doing anyway eventually for more comfortable home media viewing/gaming, but figured now was as good a time as any for it), and some last minute supplies (got what was on my list, except for thermometers and cleaning wipes which are sold out, slippers since I wasnt able to make it to walmart, and a haircut which isnt that important anyway-besides the stress might make me lose whats left of my hair regardless)- I figure by next weekend if nothing else, the panic should die down enough and things should restock, and people, myself included, should be adjusted enough to the changes.
as for myself, the skin on my face has been peeling more (something its been doing for the past decade anyway, probably acting up on account of stress), my biceps sometimes get a sting to them, and I get hot flashes, sensations of burning up when the panic attacks. But so far no fever, Im breathing well, and not too tired. While I have been getting some fears, such as what will I do if I get sick with this, what will I do if I get sick with something else, what will I do if suppllies run out, society collapses, etc etc, I also remind myself of other things that are close if not similar that Ive endured and came out okay in the end. Like when I lost my job and was on unemployment for a year. Mother phone under the impression that Missouri was going to seal its boarders with Kansas and that she needed to come and rescue me from that. While that prospect didnt do anything to help my anxiety (Im perfectly capable of coming up with worst case scenarios on my own without help), I could at least take away the fact that I had a lifeline if worst comes to worst.
So far, it really hasnt been too different from my normal life routine. I still stay in, still order delivery, mostly. The only thing that's really changed is work from home, no large packages, no dining and no movie theaters. I still get my netflix in the mail (king of texas last week, alphaville this week). I do what I can to take 15-30 minutes to step outside and get some fresh air. The weather alternates between sunny and cloudy, but still cool. People still walk their dogs. I still hear the busses go by, the train whistles blow, the birds sing, people chatter in the apartment hallways, etc. Small, but important reminders that life is still life, and this is not the end times.
Now is time for work. April 1st seems to be the next big target date. If not April 23rd, if not sooner. We shall see how things pan out then. All one can do is take care of one's self, hope for the best, and ride it out. We shall see...