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Right Now:
The Cruxshadows are playing... but it was either their cover or gas for the next 3 days, and considering how I didnt even have the gas to drive to the show, my last 8 was given to the gastank... just as well I suppose- they're a good band and a good show, but not worth sacrificing over... and of course, I know all the people who I hate and who hate me are going to be there, and Im not going to sacrifice an arm and a leg to be around people I dont like...
What pisses me off most though is that I dont even have the money to get the new Ren and Stimpy DVD set... Im mad panicking that they're going to sell out of the limited edition before I get my paycheck on friday.,... grrrrr..... that and Im hungry too.... and my housemate keeps mooching off my damned food... next time, HE gets to do grocery shopping...
On the plus side, I managed to at least squeeze together a few bucks for the final Invader Zim DVD set, containing the unaired episodes... BISCUTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Still waiting... for the weekend.... Thats just me though... I have a bit of an aquired bad habit of being impatient... mostly a fear of loosing opportunities unless I grab them as quickly as possible, or of loosing things if I dont have them in my hands/sights, etc... horrible habit, really... even the hobbies can fail to distract me from these things... just calm, steady breathing with the eyes closed usualy calms things down a bit... You think its easy, then you try living with OCD... see how easy it is then....
But Im coping... what doesnt kill us.. etc etc etc.... musnt let silly little things like such get to me... I know you all hate reading about such things, but hey, its a part of my life, so I might as well face up and be honest about it....
Thats the problem with some people... they have a fear of honesty.... or at least being honest with and about themselves... if we cant be honest with/about ourselves, then who CAN we be honest with/about?
The Cruxshadows are playing... but it was either their cover or gas for the next 3 days, and considering how I didnt even have the gas to drive to the show, my last 8 was given to the gastank... just as well I suppose- they're a good band and a good show, but not worth sacrificing over... and of course, I know all the people who I hate and who hate me are going to be there, and Im not going to sacrifice an arm and a leg to be around people I dont like...
What pisses me off most though is that I dont even have the money to get the new Ren and Stimpy DVD set... Im mad panicking that they're going to sell out of the limited edition before I get my paycheck on friday.,... grrrrr..... that and Im hungry too.... and my housemate keeps mooching off my damned food... next time, HE gets to do grocery shopping...
On the plus side, I managed to at least squeeze together a few bucks for the final Invader Zim DVD set, containing the unaired episodes... BISCUTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Still waiting... for the weekend.... Thats just me though... I have a bit of an aquired bad habit of being impatient... mostly a fear of loosing opportunities unless I grab them as quickly as possible, or of loosing things if I dont have them in my hands/sights, etc... horrible habit, really... even the hobbies can fail to distract me from these things... just calm, steady breathing with the eyes closed usualy calms things down a bit... You think its easy, then you try living with OCD... see how easy it is then....
But Im coping... what doesnt kill us.. etc etc etc.... musnt let silly little things like such get to me... I know you all hate reading about such things, but hey, its a part of my life, so I might as well face up and be honest about it....
Thats the problem with some people... they have a fear of honesty.... or at least being honest with and about themselves... if we cant be honest with/about ourselves, then who CAN we be honest with/about?