Dreamtime...

[dustinprewitt]

Last night I dreamed I was at the funeral...

It was difficult... I recall somewhat loosing my composure, getting a little emotional, getting angry at all the people/relatives who patronized him, put him in the retirement home, doted after him, etc...

Then I woke up earlier than usual, to go over to the mortuary to help pick out a coffin, pay expenses, etc...

Its not so bad that I have to go to one beloved's funeral, but now I have to do it for the same person AGAIN... reliving the experience again, and again, and again, and again...

be sure to pay your expenses before you pay your respects...

Pick whichever coffin and arrangement you want... its YOUR funeral...

If you want to see him, he'll be on exhibition at cochrin morturary...

black humour is my masking/coping mechanisim...

mechanism... makes me sound mechanical, doesnt it?

is this who I am? Am I mechanical?

Comments

[tiki22cal.livejournal.com]

you aren't being mechanical, you are being human and you have had a loss. you do what you have to and keep going just like the rest of us. You will be better soon.

[ex-unholy882.livejournal.com]

sorry about your loss... i hope you feel better soon!

[ex-funkermi.livejournal.com]

My condolences. I lost my grandfather a few years back. I felt awful because I never got the chance to get to know him. Anyway, you don't know me, but I just wanted to say I'm in the area and have open ears if you need a friend.

[remembermycrime.livejournal.com]

^Ditto