White Noise

* Birthday: 28 september1981
* Eyes:brown
* Hair: black
* Height:6'
* Shoe Size: 15
* Who lives with you: Lavern, Brain Files
* When is your bedtime? midnight

------------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------
* Flown on a plane: Yes
* Ever been so drunk you blacked out: No
* Missed school because it was raining: no
* Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: Yes
* Put a body part on fire for amusement: No
* Been hurt emotionally: Yes
* Had an imaginary friend: some would say that all my "friends" are imaginary
* Wanted to hook up with a friend: Yep
* Ever thought an animated character was hot? yes
* Been on stage: Yes
* Cut your own hair: yes
* Had crush on a teacher?:yes (but not my own)
* Favorite Shampoo: they're all the same really
* Favorite Color: dark green, violet
* Day or Night: neither or both
* Summer or Winter: neither or both
* Lace or Satin: Satin.
* Favorite Cartoon Character: Coach McGurk
* Favorite Food: roasted turkey
* Favorite Advertisement: hm... cant recall offhand
* Favorite Drink: code read and smirnoff twisters
* Person/persons talking to online: [Unknown site tag]
* Favorite sport: curling
* Favorite Car: The Munstermobile

-----------------RIGHT NOW------------------
* Wearing: Black Slacks, my Einsturzende Neubauten tour shirt from my trip to washington DC
* Drinking: Cherry vanilla Dr. Pepper (which tastes more like the original than diet)
* Thinking about: why dont they ever call back?
* Listening to: computer hum

---------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------
* Cried: No
* Worn jeans: no
* Met someone new online: No
* Done laundry: No.
* Drove a car: Yes.
* Talked on the phone: Yes
* Kissed someone: No
* Said "I love you": No

---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN--------------
* Yourself: I have to... who else will
* Your friends: wish I could
* Santa Claus: in a sense
* Tooth Fairy: in the same sense
* Destiny/Fate: eh, dont care
* Angels: No
* Ghosts: No
* UFO's: No
* God: "does god believe in me?"

--------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
* Do you ever wish you had another name? sometimes
* Do you like anyone? yes
* Which one of your friends acts the most like you? I wouldnt know... I dont like me very much...


* Who have you known the longest of your friends: hm... probably Luke
* Who's the weirdest?: I am
* What's the best feeling in the world: being appreciated for who you are, what your trying to do, and getting the reaction that you desire and deserve
* Worst Feeling: everything else
* What time is it now?: 20:04 CST

----------FINISH EACH SENTENCE---------
Let's walk in the: park
Let's run through: grass
Let's look at the: house
Where did all the: money go
How are: you?
Why can't you: do anything right?
Silly, little: doofus
Show me some: money *shudder*
The sky is: black
Tell me: something
Hide me: no
Love me: please
My mom thinks you're: I dunno
She's not: in her right mind

HAVE YOU EVER
1. Kissed your cousin: not to my recollection
2. Ran away: if you could call it that
3. Pictured your crush naked: oh yes, every day
4. Skipped school: yes
5. Broken someone's heart: I only HOPE so...
6. Been in love: Yes
7. Cried when someone died: Yes
8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: Yes
10. Done something embarrassing: No, of course not
12. Cried in school: I dont really want to talk about it

WHICH IS BETTER:

13. Coke or Pepsi: coke
14. Sprite or 7UP: same
15. Girls or Guys: girls
18. Blondes or Brunettes: Brunettes
19. Bitchy or Slutty: none
20. Tall or Short: short
21. Pants or Shorts: Pants


WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX
23. What do you notice first: Aesthetic
24. Last person you slow danced with: I havent slow danced with anyone in almost TEN YEARS.

THE LAST TIME YOU...
26. Showered: I dunno
27. Stepped outside: This Morning
28. Had Sex: Ask No Questions, Hear No Lies...

RANDOM...
30. Your Good Luck Charm: cant recall
31. Person You Hate Most: the citizens of the united states of america
32. Best Thing That Has Happened: lately, its getting a phone number from a relative stranger
34. Picture on your desktop: stock footage from album photography from Antichrist Superstar by Dean Carr
35. Color: greyscale
37. Artist: diane arbus
38. Cars: running
39. Ice Cream: vanilla
40. Season: spring
41. Breakfast Food: spangles sourdough ham and cheese omlett

WHO...
42. Makes you laugh the most: Bloo, from Fosters Home for Imaginary Friends
43. Makes you smile: Ashley
44. Can make you feel better no matter what: used to be Valerie, right now no one
45. Has A Crush On You: dont be rediculous... thats impossible
46. Do You Have A Crush On Someone? what do you care?
47. Who Has it easier? the liars, cheats, and undeserving

DO YOU EVER
49. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night: I have on occaision.
50. Save AIM conversations: if the conversation is interesting or incriminating enough
51. Save E-mails: most of them
52. Forward secret E-mails: I would know
53. Wish you were someone else: yes
54. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: sometimes
55. Wear cologne: No.
56. Kiss: I vaugley recall doing something like that
57. Cuddle: ""
58. Go online for longer than eight hours at a time: yes

HAVE YOU EVER
59. Fallen for your friend?: Yes
60. Made out with JUST a friend?: Yes
61. Kissed two people in the same day?: not that Ive noticed
62. Had sex with two different people in the same day: No
63. Been rejected: guess
64. Been in love?: Yes
65. Been in lust?: Yes
66. Used someone? probably
67. Been used?: all the time
68. Cheated on?: no
69. Been cheated on?: no
70. Been kissed?: Yes
71. Done something you regret?: Yes

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
72. You touched?: thinking, thinking... nope, I got nothing
73. You talked to?: I talked to a stranger earlier today
74. You hugged?: Ashley probably...
75. You instant messaged?: cant recall
76. You kissed?: still got nothing
77. You yelled at?: another spoiled, faceless customer at work
78. You thought about? at least 75 people at once
79. Who text messaged you?: probably michael
81. Who told you they loved you? now THAT I cannot remember, even if anyone EVER really told me that (and believed them anyway...)

DO YOU...
82. Color your hair? No
83. Have tattoos?: No
84. Have piercings?: No
85. Own a webcam?: no
86. Own a thong?: No
87. Ever get off the damn computer?
88. Sprechen Sie Deutsch?: Ja, but nicht sher gut
89. Habla espanol: no beuno
90. Quack?: No

HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU...
91. Stolen anything?: a long time ago
92. Smoke?: I never smoke... tobacco...
93. Schizophrenic?: contrary to popular belief, no
94. Obsessive?: very much so
95. Compulsive?: I try not to be
96. Obsessive compulsive?: oh yes
97. Panic?: sometimes
98. Anxiety?: often
99. Depressed?: only my drug dealier/pharmicist knows for sure
100. Emo?: I should hope not...

Something, Anything...

stolen from hohum

1. Of all the bands/artists in your cd/record collection, which one do you own the most albums by?
KMFDM I think

2. What was the last song you listened to (voluntarily)?:
I think it was In the Night by Pet Shop Boys

3. What's in your CD player right now?
On the single player, its Orbital's 1st Self Titled

4. What song would you say sums you up [attach lyrics to bottom]
Marilyn Manson- Vod-Evil: "I wake up everyday on the wrong side of the bed/I wont lay down on the floor/like Im the whore in your head/call me a failure pretender sex offender infector/they say I killed all my friends and I deserve to be dead/...I wont pull out/I just came/I want all of the blame/... blackball me DJ yourself away/turn your back it will be easier to stab...

5.What's your favorite local band?:
I used to like Auto Agression Device, the quit before their time... Leary hardly ever plays anymore, and I liked New Hours of Operation

6. What was the last show you attended?
Ministry with Hanzel Und Gretyl

7.What was the greatest show you've ever been to?
Marilyn Manson- Kansas City- Halloween 2000

8. What's the shittiest band you've ever seen in concert?
hm... it was this local band that opened for Hum, several years ok

9. What band do you love musically but hate the members of?
Im probably thinking Smashing Pumpkins

10. What's the most musically involved you have been?
In middle school, I played the sting bass... hated it

11. What upcoming show/tour are you looking forward to?
nothing yet

12.What is your favorite band t-shirt?
probably a toss up between the classic Smells Like Children shirt, the Electric Hellfire Club shirt, the Satanic Army tshirt, and my Nirvana/Dante's Inferno shirt

13. What musician would you like to hang out with for a day?
I blush to say, marilyn manson...

14. What musician would you like to hump for a day?
shirely manson.

15. Metal question-jeans and Leather vs. Cracker Jack clothes?


16. Sabbath or solo Ozzy?:
Sabbath.


19. Does Primus suck?
Primus Sucks! Primus Sucks!

20. Name 3 flawless albums:
Nine Inch Nails- The Downward Spiral
Marilyn Manson- Holywood: In the Shadow of the Valley of Death
PJ Harvey- Is This Desire?

21. Did you know that filling out this survey makes you a music geek?
yeah, probably

22. What was the greatest decade for music?:
I would say 1990-1995, about 1/2 a decade

23.How many music related videos/DVDs do you own?
bout maybe 20 or so

24. Do you like Journey?
no

25. Don't try to pretend you don't!:
I'll try

26. What is your favorite movie soundtrack?
Pi: Faith in Chaos, Lost Highway, Trainspotting, and Natural Born Killers

27. What was your last musical "phase" before you wisened up?:
hard to say...

28. What music is your "guilty pleasure" that you don't often admit to liking
Mission UK is not always bad.... I also dig vanilla ice sometimes, and a little ICP

29. What album have you purchased the most copies of in your lifetime?
I think it was Antichrist Superstar, but only to keep replacing the copies of the album that my mother would steal and/or destroy

30. Who is your favorite musician and why?
Single wise, I would say PJ Harvey

Valentine's Day is for Lovers...

I remember why I hate best buy...

I went there, just browsing to see what the pricing was on the Return of the King deluxe set as well as to see if they had the donnie darko directors cut... being satisfied with neither, I left without purchessing.... the whole time everyone was eying me like I was some sort of undesireable for not wanting to purchess something... on the way out, some big fat-assed black guy working the front came up to me wanting to give me a high five, then asked if I found everything ok... I told him I was looking for the Donnie Darko directors cut on DVD... he just mumbled he didnt know anything about it and wandered off satisfied that I had not robbed his precious little store blind. fucking typical....

Ah yes, and I also hate reading about people's love-lorn life, how upset they are that no one asks them out, that no one will have sex with them, yet when opportunites are presented to them, they do not seem so eager to alleave themselves of their current situation... either they enjoy their position more than they would admit, or that they are not as desperate as they portray themselves to be....

I have lost my patience for people.... Every single day, I find myself loosing my humanity, bit by bit, piece by piece... I would say that Im already dead and that the only thing left is the post mortem rigor mortis and decay...

but on the plus side, I seem to have met a stranger at a bar, name of Vanessa... perhaps one day she wont be a stranger... at least Im trying....

I remember a few years ago, as a part of an experiment, I made a commitment to not talk or contact anyone until someone had initiated contact with me, just to see how long it would be before someone talked to me... I think it was two some odd weeks, when a person who I was working with at the time+I graduated high school with was wanting to stop by and check out my then-apartment....

Im curious how long I can go this season....

Anyone want to be my valentine? Now accepting applications. Post below. Im thinking monday, go see breakfast at tiffany's at the orpheum... if I like you, we can make out, if I really like/trust you, maybe we'll have sex...

"Sometimes I feel like a whore..."